The Hallway of the Mind and the Child Who Waits

Notes from the Hollow Bone, Entry Two
by Mai Wells

There are moments that don’t arrive as thoughts, but as sensations—sun-warm skin, the weightless breath of play, the sound of a world before expectations. This was one of them.

I was looking out at a field of wishing flowers, tucked beneath the old honeysuckle tree, when something shifted. Something soft. Something real. A peace I hadn’t touched in a long while.

No task. No proving. No becoming.
Just presence. And in that stillness—I remembered.

I remembered being nine years old, barefoot in the dirt, wearing whatever could be ruined with joy. Back then, no one cared what you wore. No one asked for polish or performance. Your hair could be wild. Your spirit too.

No masks. No makeup. No performance of adulthood.
Just the holy thrill of being alive.

But time has its own weathering. We learn to present. We learn to perform. Slowly, almost gently, the layers form. Until the mask becomes familiar. Until we forget we’re wearing it.

And yet, the child is never gone. Just sleeping.
Sometimes, it only takes a field of flowers to stir her awake.

That moment brought me back to the basics—when touching the Earth felt sacred. When joy was natural. And presence wasn’t something I practiced—it was simply how I lived.

We cannot return completely. And we shouldn’t. But we can visit.
We can wander the hallway of the mind and knock softly on the door of our younger self.

Not to escape. But to remember.
To gather what we’ve left behind.

That little girl in the field—she wasn’t trying to create.
She wasn’t trying to heal.
She just was.

And that, I’m finding, is where creativity lives. Not in the force. Not in the fixing. But in the freedom.

In my own work, and in the lives I’m honored to witness, I see it again and again:
We forget to pause.
To breathe.
To be.

Not to accomplish. Not to improve. Just to feel.
It sounds simple. But it’s not easy.

It takes practice to let go.
It takes courage to feel the sun on your face with no other purpose than joy.
But when you do—it changes things.

You return to yourself.
You come back to center.
You remember who you were before you forgot.

So I ask myself often:
When did I last feel like a child?
When did I last let myself just be?

The answer? Yesterday.
When I wrote this.
When I stood in the field.
When I remembered.

That’s the practice now.
Not once a week. Not on special occasions.
Every single day, if I can help it.

Not because it’s indulgent.
But because it’s essential.
Because if we’re not making space for joy—
what are we making space for?

And maybe this is how we hollow, too.
Not just by letting go of what no longer fits,
but by remembering what still lives inside the softest parts of us.

And the child who is gently remembered… will bloom quietly in the soft soil of your presence.

With grace and ink,
~ Mai